The best version of myself

is illegal

it is hard and strange to know that,

I could be so much more

So easily

but these consequences are real and

My head hurts.

They all say i’m wasting my life

my decisions might be negative

my body might be scarred.

These choices may not always be right

but fuck it, they are mine

and they are all that I have ever had

Previously, purchasing my book was the only way you could
find these. They are really, really old. I still don't want to forget.

God, this can't be.
God, this can't be,
God, could it be that all we see is it?
Is this it? Is this it?

And brother, have you found the great peace that we all seek?
You say take a look around,
if there is a God then he must be asleep
God must be asleep.

[This show was much needed and four years overdue. As Cities Burn love, always and forever.]

HOLY GHOST ZINE / This is greatly appreciated - Amar Gupta

"Oh well, memories," said I. "Yes, even remembering in itself is sad,
yet how much more its object! Don't let yourself in for things like that,
it's not for you and not for me. It only weakens one's present position
without strengthening the former one--nothing is more obvious--quite
apart from the fact that the former one doesn't need strengthening. Do
you think I have no memories? Oh, ten for every one of yours."  - Kafka

Big thanks to all the folks over at POSI+TIVE Magazine, and (if you haven't seen it yet) here's a link to my portfolio review.

these streets are overcrowded, my thoughts undermined.
i can't get this noise out of my head. what i'm willing to give
doesn't matter. what i show? maybe. but i don't need approval
as much as i don't need these lungs or this throat or this face or